For the last few days I have been Mrs. Cranky Pants BIG time!
My crankiness might have something to do with the fact that I just can't keep my kids healthy. I'm talking about months of nasty diapers (Ryder, not Paisley), lots of drainage and coughing (both) and early morning vomit you can set your watch to (Ryder, because of the drainage/coughing). We took both kids to the doctor last week: Paisley had an ear infection and was given meds. The doctor said everything look fine for Ryder and to just watch him.
Or it might have something to do with the fact Ryder still isn't sleeping all night. The sleep might be a combination of this non-sickness he has with coughing fits all night long. Or it could be a case of the brat baby. You be the judge. He doesn't wake up wanting milk, just to be rocked and letting him cry it out isn't really an option because the kids share a room so if he cries too long it wakes Paisley up and makes her cranky at school. Toby is going to try the whole cry it out thing again this weekend and let Paisley sleep in the playroom. Fingers crossed things get better because this house needs it's sleep back.
Or maybe because some people in my life believe the world revolves around them and everyone else needs to bend to accommodate them/their wishes without any regard to others. It is hard for me to see them in this new not so pretty light. I try to not judge and bit my tongue but at what point do I remove myself from the poison of these people and the hurt they cause.
It might also have to do with that fact that I have been questioning my decision to stay home full time. Am I really do the right thing for the kids? Would Ryder be better at a daycare and me at work? What am I helping by staying home?
On that note, peace out! I am off to feed my soul and regroup at a craft weekend.
No kids! No husbands! I can't wait!!!
Side Note: I love my family and I couldn't image life without them but sometimes this momma needs to recharge. Trust me, they benefit just as much as I do. Toby if you are reading this; thanks a million for flying solo this weekend.